The first steps were a walk in the light. The next few tore the day from the night. And there needed to be waves but they grew so big in size: scattered my body across the sky. And I won’t be undone. I turned my back on the sun. Nothing’s ever simple but the simple truth was that I turned my back on the sun.// I became a cloud of crystals, catching starlight, before I was aware I could control myself, move through my mind in the dark night. I could barely speak. And I ate all my gums and my tongue and my teeth, laying underwater feeling pissed cuz I just couldn’t breathe.// After a long time I opened my eyes, that was fucking hard cuz they were shut so fucking tight, and I wanted to be brave and I wanted to be right. And I needed to make up my fucking mind. Cuz I am the one, when push comes to shove, who knows my every angle and the depth of damage done, so I turned my back on the sun.